Wednesday, February 21, 2007

The Singapore Album & Thoughts...

Well.. if anyone pops in to see the exhibition at the National Museum (17/2 - 11/3), you will get to see the wedding photos of me & wilk, and also our parents and grandparents blown up big big... Ah. Not the most flattering of shots but it was quite nice when placed side by side with our parents/grandparents. Was there at the official opening last friday and was interview by one of the chinese radio station (fm88.3). Too bad we didn't get the hear it over the radio later that evening cos' we were all having a family dinner (his and mine) down at Sichuan Dou Hua. Our wedding album was displayed too though i think they might have kept it after one of the pages fell out after repeated flipping on the day of the opening by other people. Abit heart-pain... sigh. Whole experience was also abit wayang cos' we all (including all our family) had to hang around our "display" till the MP who officiated at the opening come by. Took quite a while before reaching our area too. He commented that our type of album would have a 'market' these days since couples will want something unique.

Well... our experiences so far were that, everyone wants to be unique, yet nobody really wants to fall out of the norm and push the boundaries (except within rather 'safe' limits). At the end of the day, while most people commented that our album was very nice and unique etc etc, not alot of people would want to do anything similar for theirs. Guess bottom line is, while it is all nice to be 'unique', it is also very important to be 'accepted' by the 'majority' of people (i.e. parents, relatives etc) and not go 'too out' of conventional 'wisdom', especially at weddings. It all ends up with couples wanting to be special, but not daring to be 'that' special and not wanting to offend or worry the elders, hence end up with something with vague touches of 'individuality' but really is very much like everyone else's.

Sorry for sounding bitchy... but I do understand how that goes because of the number of elders i had alienated and unconsiously offend by wanting to do the wedding in our own 'individual' way... It all depends if it would be that kinda of path you want to take. Frankly, if you are OK with doing the 'usual' wedding things and really like what you have, who cares about being 'unique'? I am not sure that people should strive to be unique, just for the sake of 'appearing' unique to others. If anything, I would just love for anybody to be able to to fight for what they want regardless of what people say. And if what people say is that important? Then know exactly what you are compromising for and be happy and have no regrets that you have given up your 'individuality' but made others happy.

CNY

I can forsee that CNY will be one of the tougher period of the year for me... Sigh.
Don't know what to say except that, differences sometimes can break you.
Still, we survived and its back to work and face other demands for now.

Happy Lunar New Year people...

White and blank

Crazy blog is still being nuts.
Blogger help is frankly... No HELP at ALL.
Despite sending them emails and dropping enquiries at the help forum.
Quite QUITE irritated.
But will keep on posting... since i doubt many people read this, and its more for myself.. but but but... i like my template... *burst into tears*

Ruskie Ties!

Hahaha Ruskie ties at first place with another lovely kitty at the flickr photo contest! Thanks to all that voted! *grins*

http://flickr.com/groups/gatti_gattini_gattoni/discuss/72157594544433832/

Friday, February 16, 2007

Vote for RUSKIE!

The blog is still WEIRD... So i wonder how many people can see my blog instead of a blank page.. But if you add a ? at the end of the url, the post does apply, though without template. Sigh...

Anyway...

Ruskie (me cat) is in a photo contest and i am shamelessly asking for anyone who can,to go vote for him here.. http://www.flickr.com/groups/gatti_gattini_gattoni/discuss/72157594533419663/

Heh heh

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

What's Wrong

I cant load the blog!

Friday, February 9, 2007

为什么我想当“咸鱼”。。。



<<咸鱼>> - 五月天

我是一只咸鱼 不想承认 也不能否认
不要同情我笨 又夸我天真 还梦想著翻身

咸鱼就算翻身 还是只咸鱼 输得也诚恳
至少到最后 我还有咸鱼 不腐烂的自尊

我没有任何天分 我却有梦的天真
我是傻 不是蠢 我将会证明 用我的一生

我 如果有梦 有没有错 错过才会更加明白 明白坚持是什麼?
我 如果有梦 梦要够疯 够疯才能变成英雄 总会有一篇 我的传说

我不好也不坏 不特别出众 我只是敢不同
我的人生就是 一错再错 错完了再从头

也许放弃掉一些 活得更轻松 我却不再是我
我不愿一生 晒太阳吹风 咸鱼也要有梦

有一天有我的天空

作我的英雄 在我的天空 我知道你懂 知道你会懂 耶~

Thanks to leonnie...

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as driven and ambitious.

Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Chatting up the boss...

Well, I've said what i need to say to my head of department. As expected, i was asked to stay till the end of the year because of the new psychologists coming in and i need to help with supervision. That, and the fact that another psychologist here has already tendered and due to leave by July.

Have not made up my mind about staying till the end of the year though i would rather leave earlier. My purpose of telling my HOD was to get her to 'spare' me from any training that the school might put me to because i do not want to waste my time, nor do i want the school to waste their money. All in all, it will also prevent any potential 'ugliness' between the school and i, if i am to attend those training yet knowing that i was not going to use the 'skills' learnt now that i am planning to go.

The HOD knew my reasons of wanting to leave and i guess she expected it but i have not really thought of how to say it to the principal. Everyone i know and articles i have read about resigning from one's job, spoke of leaving in a gracious and cordial note. A little difficult now, since i don't quite have a legit reason of leaving (can't say i am pregnant or going to studying can i?) nor do i really like to lie. Bottomline is, i DO want to speak my mind about why i wanted to leave due to how the organization has been managed. Yet on an emotional note, i also do not want to hurt anyone here because i do like them despite their 'flaws'. Looking at it, till now, i can hardly blog about my reasons, what more verbalizing them out. Writing the resignation letter was a breeze... now going to tell it as it is, that's the challenge for me.

In any case, i have to go talk to the principal later today because only she can offcially take me off those training lists that has just been posted up. As to what i'll eventually say, i guess i would only know after my meeting with her.

抱着五月天的阿信

那天做了个又好笑又开心的梦。。。
梦里我与我一位同事来到了阿信的签唱会。
就当我前面只剩几个人时,我突然自觉到自己其实正在做梦,一切只是梦境,并非真实。
奇怪的是我不感到失望,反而打起了一个念头。。。
既然是个梦,那一切应该可以让我支配吧?
现实难以发生的事,在梦里我可以一一的实现。
就在这种‘阿信’全全在我‘掌控’时,我跟他要了一个拥抱。
说来也满滑稽的。。。’阿信‘那时就如一个手脚不听使唤的人,一面hug着我,一面表露着一幅“发生了什么事”的表情, 我不禁暗暗自喜 *heehee*.
醒来时,很开心的把着梦告诉了meowmeow,他也觉得我很好笑,很奇怪。
幸好他不是个容易嫉妒的人,不然我就惨了!:)

Monday, January 29, 2007

梦醒后。。。

睁开眼时,感觉了一股沉闷。
心里老有一种难以形容得心情缠绕着。
似如一个早已填满的黑洞,本该空虚却又累积了一种莫明其妙的感动。
让人的心不经意的觉得阵阵酸,阵阵喜,也带点兴奋与刺激。
有点想起某些幻影,某些似以相识的人,像在我梦里与我分享了一个秘密。
一个己开心,又心痛的秘密。
一个我也不晓得是否有人可以与我分享的秘密。
好想你也有同一个洞,同一个梦。
同样的与我梦醒后感觉这一丝丝的酸与甜。。。

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Inuka


Inuka - Sheba's son
Originally uploaded by AuRoRiN & MoOoK.

Visited the zoo over the weekend to see Inuka and Sheba. Never really took a closer look at them so this was a good chance before Inuka gets relocated after mommy Sheba passes away. Anyway it was a good day at the zoo, seeing the different animals and caught most of the animal shows and feeding. Only pity perhaps is that we only managed to see half of the zoo.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

two zero zero seven

Judging by the lapse between the last post and this one, it's of little wonder how busy my life must be. Well, its either that or that i am plain lazy. Hmm. Perhaps a combination of both. I can't quite tell 'cause i've been pretty busy, as i was saying...

So.

2007.

Another year. Another day at work. Another hour of being 'gainfully' employed. Sad but it's seems brighter to me this time round since i think i jumped in this time with my eyes fully open and arms tightly wrapped around a lifejacket. My lifeline this year will be my full awareness of my limitations and capabilities, plus (and it is a huge plus) the fact that my route out of here is planned, my ticket safely in my pocket. Nothing that has happened thus far, since the start of the school year, has shown me that my choice wasn't the right one. Up til today... the last meeting just shows how much i needed to move on to avoid being sucked right into the 'hurricane' of chaos and have my sanity ripped right out of me before i know what's happening.

I am not kidding.

It is THAT bad.

On a brighter note... i am FINALLY finding that the fact my room is constantly beseiged by water problems (this time it is the toilet bowl which is leaking) a rather funny thing.

It is impossible not to see the humour when your roof is in tatters, your walls are constantly soaked, you have pails lining up your dresser, your floor is peeling off, your toilet door looking such a fright after being hacked and cemented, your floor has sprouted a 'drain' or sorts in front of the toilet, your toilet floor is constantly at a state of 'puddling' and finally your cat pooped on your bed since the toilet's making it too wet to thread through.

Frankly. I am serious when i think it's funny.

I mean, what's the alternative? Hammering my head on the wall and add blood to the water soaking up in the room?

:)

Ok. So not too bright a note, that.

Hmm... we did have a new colleague at work this year. More people to share the burden eh? Except, more people have resigned (ahead of me)... so that's also not too good.


But.

I still think 2007 isn't that bad. Kota Tinggi is flooding but here, it's just thomson (and maybe my room). Crazy weather patterns and funny man trying to solve a problem (which he has created in the first place) by putting more people in danger but, economy seems to be doing well and my stocks are rocketing still (i'm keeping at eye on it though). I am driven nuts by my insecurities but my family and loved ones are safe and sound. Some friends seemed to have disappeared into thin air but i got in touched with more friends than i have ever hoped to see again.

It's been a good start... 2007.

:)

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

”麦来乱“ - 五月天

Alright, the last video i'm going to put up this evening. My current favourite song to 'shout' while driving, "麦来乱" by Mayday. Basically it means don't come and disturb in Hokkien, and a really angst filled, top of your lungs type of song where the continually love-sick protagonist is asking a ex-lover not to come 'kar chiao'anymore now that everyone has moved on.

Been singing this in the car for a bit and yes, i can be oblivious to uncles/aunties staring from other cars when i do my whole rock/roll headbanging thing, and no, it doesn't hamper my driving.. at all. Anyway, i have many favourite songs by Mayday, this one just happened to be the 'flavour of the month' because i am into singing 'rock' or 'screaming' songs now (think songs from Beyond and Fir, and plenty of attitude) and doing it in Hokkien just up a notch of the challenge since i CAN'T speak Hokkien. No big deal, just more screaming along with the CDs when driving then.

Thankfully, i've plenty of opportunities to drive alone... so i guess my only casualty so far would only be wilk. Poor thing. Not only that, he had to sit through my ktv sessions too... heh heh. The things people do when they are in love eh?

Alritey... Here we go folks.. get ready the ear plugs!

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

All things bright and beautiful

Seems like a McDull festival on Madness Monologues but couldn't resist after spending half my evening surfing YouTube for clips (despite having the vcds for both McDull movies). This is my favourite song from the cartoon, "All things bright and beautiful" by the Pancakes. A real cheery song and one i would sing at KTV if it is avaliable. Pity that the YouTube version doesnt have the accompaning animation but still a wonderful song nonetheless.

Enjoy!

Mind-numbing menu



HmMmm makes me hungry with all the food...

YouTube is great... love all these little clips of McDull, featuring Sandra Ng (吴君如)as the mom and Anthony Wong (王秋生)as various other adult male characters, such as the waiter here. That man's really got great lungs to be able to rattle off the menu without taking a breath in between!

An anthem for new year!



From one of my favourite cartoon... *grins*

Moving out and moving on...

On xmas day, wilk and I went down to the studio space at perumal road to pack up our stuff. After almost 3 years of renting the space from P-10, wilk has finally decided to end his lease and move out. I think both of us are quite sad while packing away the books and paints, and covering his various paintings with paper. Over the years we have seen people moved in and out along this stretch at perumal road but i guess nowadays, more people are moving out than in. It's a pity really, because we did have a wonderful time at the studio. Wilkie will do his arty things while i just chill out and bum around watching him and various other artists around the area, most of which are friends we have known for a while.

I remembered initially when everyone was new and fresh to the place, there were always activities happening on the weekends or evenings, be it talks, performances or shows opening. There were impromptu dinners and coffee breaks at the corner coffee shops and people could be walking in and out of the studio space chatting and talking cock. I was generally a spectator in all this but it was fun listening and watching others. I've also gotten to know new friends and other singaporean young artists who shared the studio spaces around the area, and seen their works. Some of them have moved to other studio spaces, while a few sorta disappeared. A bulk of them are also exisiting art teachers, like wilk, trying to balance out work and their passion for art. Sadly, after a while, most found it difficult to continue on and moved out.. and now i guess, its us.

On the way back after packing... wilk and i had a talk about this. I felt a little frustrated by the fact that people could be drained out of their passion by work and life in general but since i am not the one living that experience, i guess i can't understand how it is to have to juggle making art, creating and yet fulfilling necessary responsibilities. Still, i looked to a few rare examples along perumal road... the individuals who had perservered and felt that nothing is impossible if one has the passion for the kind of life they want and seek to make that happened. Hence quite automatically, i questioned the passion of people who 'gave up' and settle for something else. But i realized that i shouldn't judge others this way since i am not in their shoes... and everyone has that choice to take their own road.

Guess i am just a little... disappointed.

Have plenty of good memories there.. wilk's cat paintings, preparing for exhibitions, kaya toast, billy cat from upstairs, mosquito coils, sunday indian crowds, chatting with other people around the studio, reading my books on the mat, catching a nap, watching others and wilk work on paintings...

Hmmm... Will miss the studio space.. the 'synergy' (though it has been increasingly quiet) and that little slice of life away from the hustle/bustle.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

A piece of...

...my mind.

That's what i gave one of the contractors who was supposed to come take a look at my leaking roof but in the end 'tua' me 3 times, without so much as a call to let me know that he couldn't make it. I was already quite 'buay song' with the guy but decided to let it be and called another contractor when he did not show up.

The crunch came when he had the audacity to call me SEVEN hours after the time he said he would be here, to ask me if i was the one who had called him and wanted to know what's the problem.

Man. I really let him have it over the phone.

---- Phone Conversation ----
Excuse me, Ms Lee ah, you called me yesterday right? What's the problem ah?

What's the problem? Didn't i already speak to you on the phone yesterday? My roof is leaking and where have you been? You said you were coming at 1pm and now its already 8pm.

*Nonchalantly* Ya la ya la. I have alot of projects and forgot. So i come later can or not?

Sorry. I already found someone else.

*A little worried* Ah. You fix the roof already?

No. I just needed someone to assess the problem and give me a quote. Anyway, i don't require your service anymore.

*Half-smug tone* OHhhhh.. quotation huh. So the other guy never fix the roof yet la. So i can still come down later take a look la. Give you quotation.

I already said. NO NEED. I found other contractors to give me the quotes. (Up till this point, i am still fairly polite but the stupid guy just got even more audacious once he realized he had a chance to get my business.)

Ms Lee, better get more quotations than can compare mah. (Perhaps noting that I might be abit pissed...) Ah Sorry la. Today i had a lot of things to do so i forgot to come in the afternoon la. I come later?

(I mean, he was seriously asking for it lor...) Excuse me! It is already 8 something already. What you want to see now? I called you yesterday morning and first you told me will be here in half an hour (as ADVERTISED on the papers) but you did not show up after 2 hours. So i called again, and that time you promised me that will make it by 5pm and would call if you cannot make it. Which you didn't. When i called at 5, you again said you are busy and told me you will come today at 1pm, again promising to call if you couldn't...

*Interrupting me* Ah sorry sorry. Busy la. Slipped my mind so didn't call.

SLIPPED YOUR MIND? (Took a deep breathe to calm down) Look. I am not unreasonable. I know contractors can be busy, especially now with raining season. I was prepared to wait for you, as long as you give me the time and would at least call to tell me if you are going to be late or cannot make it. Because of you, i am delayed and had to cancel my appointments to wait for you. Is that how you run a business?

So, nevermind la. I say i will come down and take a look now to give you quotation and see the problem. Good to have more quotations ma.

Isn't that abit late? When i called the other contractors, they will frankly tell me if they are busy and say come before 4pm or 5pm and they do!

*Sounding irritated* But i already say i coming down now what.

(Taking another deep breath) Basically what i want very simple and i dont think i am unreasonable. You run a business. I expect you to have at least a sense of responsibility and commitment if you want the job. Not very much to ask is it, to call if you are NOT coming. Where got people run business like you? Got people call you 2-3 times and wait for you for a few hours and you still don't remember what i call you about and tell me it "SLIPPED" your mind? One time maybe, two times Ok... THREE TIMES leh! And everytime i have to call YOU to find out if you are coming. DO you think i have all the time to sit at home and wait until my roof collapse just so you can earn my business? If you don't want the job, i can always take my business else where!

*In a huff and rudely* So what you want to do now?

*Incredulous* What i want to do?! What do you think? I told you when you didn't come the 3rd time, I called someone else and he came in 1 hour time just as he said. That's how people do business. If this basic trust and commitment you also cannot deliver, you think i will still pay you to fix my roof or not?

*Lost for words for a minute* Hmm.. okie lor...

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That's when i put the phone down, being totally pissed off by his whole "I am doing you a favour" attitude. No apologies were given UNTIL he sensed that i was upset. Certainly he got a bit anxious when he realized i have started looking for someone else for the job and was actually concerned someone else has already fixed my roof. I guess that's when he realized he might lose out on a pretty lucrutive business since it's a landed property and the work involved is pretty major.

I mean... who does he think he is? People will just fall over themselves to let him do the job... like he is some Contractor IDOL? And that whole smug tone when he found out that he still had a chance at the job when i am only solicitating quotes at this point? I felt like throwing something at him! I honestly believe he thought i could be easily placated and let him waltz right in here saying and doing what he want!

Frankly, i dont want to make life difficult for anyone else and believed i am generally quite accomodating. But this guy was the PITS. I wonder does he think he could seriously 'bully' people like that. Perhaps i sounded like a nice, easy going female on the phone, who doesn't seem like the kind to stand up for myself. In fact, people want to do my business have it quite easy because i hardly negotiate and my demands are simple. Do the job well and responsibily and anything else is easy to talk about. It was so presumptious of him to think that i would be held 'hostage' and would not look for another contractor.

Do people often get push over like this? I wonder if he would have treated someone like my dad the same way, like some pushover. I think not... since my dad sound like some big boss and would be viewed as a 'rich' towkay. I bet that guy would have shown more respect and eagerness to do my dad's business then, as compared to a youngish polite-sounding female on the phone.

Sheesh!

Next time i call up contractors to do a job, i am just going to channel my mom and dad, and use their usual firm tone whenever they negotiate a business deal. Got to sound more authoritative and tone down the 'politeness' which some easily mistaken as 'helpless' and 'guillable'.

真的敬酒不喝,喝罚酒。
不要以为脾气好,就容易被欺负。
我会先礼后兵。。。 不要老虎不发威,就当我是病猫。。。

Hruumph!

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Waterloo...

... the song by ABBA is playing at 830am loudly from the nextdoor neighbour's.

A real party animal, that xiaoxiao bao dimsum king neighbour. I mean they have parties and gatherings all the time, and there's music playing especially during festive seasons (think chinese new year songs and xmas carols) but ABBA on an early saturday morning?

*rub eyes*
I feel like i am in some surreal dream.
.
.
.

Anyway.. what is it with all the H2O?? HelloOOo WATER & LOO??
Allo friend-up-there, like not really funny lor.

Sheeshh.